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I had given you everything
my heart, my soul, my love
you took it with no answer
i\'m a dying, decrepit dove

for you i would do anything
be at your every beck and call
i\'d try and lift you up
leaving for me nothing at all

i\'d smile through your beatings
and cry whilst i\'m alone
i would wish i had someone
while u talked to her on the phone

does she give you what i haven\'t
if so, what would that be?
the thought drills through my mind
and slowly destroys me

i\'ve given you all you have
and made you what you\'re worth
and now she comes in your glory
you look at me and see dirt

but once i was much more
deserving of much better
but now i am but tainted
you think you are so clever

you see that i am ruined
and i am worthless to you now
i see you run to her
that fat retarded cow!

now you\'ve left me here
slowing dieing on the floor
do you see what you have made me?
i dont recognize me anymore

i shed tears on my pillow
and blood on my sheets of white
once a place of slumber
when my mommy said \"sleep tight\"

as i pick up all the pieces
piercing shards of a shattered soul
i try to lift my spirit
but my body has run cold

then finally i remember
my savior from days past
who made me feel so lovely
i could feel life returning fast

then finally she called me
we spoke of what was wrong
she took my heart and loved it
i had missed her for so long

these two people in my life
who love me through all my pain
after i had abandoned them
i never will loose again

after all that had happened
you cried out to who ever could hear
while others see you hurting
i see only a false tear

if this is what you wanted
what you wanted to do to me
then why do you say it hurts YOU
only attention sets you free

you don\'t hurt at all
you fu cking liar and piece of scum
you desire the pity of others
you\'re as fickle as they come

but i kno you still haven\'t learned
now you just shut your ugly face
because if you don\'t listen
another will put you in your place

as each day goes by
and the pendulum swings less
you will have grown more penal
for final judgement\'s sweet caress

i\'m not much of a writer...but God i feel so much better