Fourteen Years Yours

I was still in nappies when you moved next door
And you James, had just learned how to walk
I was still crawling on my stomach
And you would stutter when you would talk

You were three and I was only one
So of course looked out for me
You became my new big brother
It all happened so naturally

When I turned five you were on your way to eight
Our age brought on the fights
I remember you broke my favorite truck
So of course I got even on your bikes

Even though we’d fight a bit
There wasn’t a moment you weren’t right there
You’d share your chocolate flavored ice cream
To let me know you care

You were almost ten when I turned seven
I remember you gave me my first kiss
It was under the bed so no one would see
That day I sure do miss

You taught how to climb a tree
I remember the day I fell out
You took me inside in your red wagon
And for an ambulance you did shout

I hated being nine
Cause you were practically twelve
I remember one time
When you introduced me to this girl

Your exact words
“This is girlfriend isn’t she cool”
I hated you that day
You had replaced me with a fool

When I was twelve
And in grade seven
You were almost fifteen
And I was in heaven

A sudden interest in boys
Brought us again together
This time you gave me a real kiss
And I wanted it to last forever

From then on we were on and off
And I knew I’d never get over you
God!! You’d drive me crazy
With some of the things you’d do

Grade eight was so weird for me
When I first met someone else
You said it hurt you like hell to know I was with him
But you wouldn’t disapprove of what I felt

A few months later I realized
I still wanted to be with you
But I didn’t have the guts to come out and say it
I was confused and didn’t know what to do

I’m now fourteen and still haven’t spoken to you
About the way I feel
I wish I had because you’ve now found someone else
I wish what’s happening wasn’t real

But I know that it is, so I’ll put on a smile
And just be happy for the both of you
I guess you can go back to being like my big brother
I’d rather that than completely losing you

But James if you ever get tired
Of acting like my big brother
Just tell me…
And I swear I can be something other

And James if things don’t work out
Between you and your new girlfriend
Just tell me…
Because by doing so, my heart you’ll mend…