Deep Part 3

I though that I could keep lying to myself by saying that one day I’ll be yours. Who was kidding? The rebound girl never wins the man of her dreams so they say

Can’t believe I’d face the day of getting my heart broken.
Just when I was starting to believe that it’s possible to be in sexual involved with your best friend and still be who u are!

I love u so much that’s why this hurts…
I told u everything that’s why this hurt’s...
I believed in u when none else did that’s why this hurts...

I messed up my life because u asked me to give up what we both financial and physically wasn’t ready to handle now I won’t even have the chance to experience that part of woman hood. Now u say that I was only in your life cause u knew deep down inside I would come running whenever u needed me that’s real fu**ed- up !

Can’t leave the earth without paying for any wrongs u did!
Every dog has their day remember that!

U need a Grammy award for the great performance u played throughout this relationship
I guess u were right in the beginning before we started out this way I don’t deserve u cause u don’t appreciate the sh** I do for u I’m just this toy that u keep playing with until your done or get tired of, u say whatever u want until u don’t need me any more.

U will soon see that u needed me more than I needed u cause deep down in side u know that I was the only one who cared about the real u the real Jason.

As I hard as it’s going to be for me to say goodbye I have to let u go!
I love u more than life itself but I love myself more

So I writing this letter to u because…..

To be continued...........

8-23-05 wed