Again

I'm screaming, yelling, shouting,
but you don't seem to hear.
I can't keep this up,
my thoughts to unclear.

Everything that's surrounding me,
reminds me of you.
things we've shared together,
stuff we still wanted to do.

this is a kind of fight,
with myself, so I won't win.
difficult, complicated, stuck are,
my deep down feelings within.

I don't understand,
I threw your love away.
and forgot our special things,
but in my heart you still stay.

It's unfair, and I guess,
it has to be your fault somehow.
stupid, cause reasons I don't have,
but I just can't deal with it right now.

I want your voice whispering in my ear,
how come? for I hate you so much.
I don't want to talk to you,
but I know I long for your touch.

they say you'll be hurting me,
but I feel no pain,
I wonder, us together.
could the love be the same?

I have changed,
and I know you have too.
If we'd gave it a try, maybe,
then we'll both get through...

*damn, I'm still in love..*