I lost

I lost my love
i lost my life
but i didn't lose the ability
to use my knife
i still cut myself
and sometimes its just to see
how much it bleeds
but other times
it cause i really need
i need to feel the pain
from something other then you
i need to feel the pain
besides being abused
you never hit me
that is true
but you did call me names
and made me feel used
you scard me with
your actions
and with your words to
you made me feel
like i wasn't good enough
for anyone
not even you
this is in my past
but its still in my heart
don't you get it
its riping me apart