This is my good-bye

Sittin' here with my mind blank
Other than you
I don't know what to think...
Or do
I don't know how to feel
My heart is broken
Smashed, Crushed, and demolished
Because my heart, you have taken
When i lay down at night
I pray for you mom to live
While squeezing my bear tight
I don't know what else to give
Ive given you my heart, soul, and life
And you basically treat it all like trash
I feel like I'm just someone you walk all over
And then make up a like and dash
I cant explain how i feel towards you
I really wish i knew the words
But i don't think you care
Or do you?
I'm always sitting on that hope
That you will treat me better
So i always call you
Then you say call me later
You are the world to me
Without you, I'm nothing
I'm always in pain
Crying every night
Never sleeping
Holding that bear you got me tight
I Love you dearly
But I'm sick of living a lie
I hope your happy
This is my good-bye
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by the way someppl were tellin me that they thought this poem was about saying goodbye to *HIM* but its really about killing myself bc of him!