Some say im boy crazy,
yeah I guess thats true,
but this one is for real,
its a feeling in my heart.
I've never had a TRUE boyfriend,
only little things,
never any cuddling, kissing,
or going places together.
I have that little lonely pang inside of me,
that little thing that screams,
someone please hold me!
but yet, I still sit here alone,
with all my friends and their boyfriends.
Do I get jealous,
yes I do,
I see them kissing anf cuddling,
and i have to sit off on the side with someone else at the time.
I hate to see them sitting there,
just so crazy in love,
and then I look at my life,
and see no love at all.
Now I see this boy,
he is a little older,
not to much,
not to little.
I have so many dreams,
of me and him together,
of me and him kissing,
and cuddling,
and going places together.
But Im too scared to tell him,
for fear of his answer,
for fear of disappointment,
for fear of just more loneliness.
Its not that no boys like me,
yes they do,
i get asked out all the time,
but i always say no.
Because I want that real relationship,
with someone I trust,
and someone I know who wont ever cheat,
someone who is there for me when i cry,
when im hyper, happy, and crazy.
All of those things are in this one boy,
but im just to scared to tell him,
for fear of his answer,
and the look on his face,
and the tears in my heart.
