You and I are not together because of my decisions. I know I made mistakes and that I crushed you. I don't know what I was thinking when you were gone. I should have kept my promise and remained yours and only yours. I lost my head as well as you all because I was lonely when you were not around.
I can't stop thinking about the love we had. You were my everything. We had the trust, honesty, and respect that everybody wants. You knew me and I knew you. We loved each other like no other. I see this now, but not before. I have ruined what I have worked for all my life.
You will never know that I still feel for you like this. Some say it's pride, but for me it's the truth of me hurting you the way I did. I couldn't go back to you knowing that you could never trust me again. It's not worth either one of us trying.
At one time you loved me more then life its self. It's been many months now, and I still remember what you once told me. I look at the moon at night hoping that your looking too and I will wonder for the rest of my living days and keep asking myself where are YOU?
