It'll Never Be

Don't even ask me
If I'm okay
It's not like I thought about him
each and every day

I knew all along
that this wouldn't work out
he doesn't want to hurt his friend
I just want to scream and shout!

I tell myself not to cry
he's just not worth it
even after I put up
with all of his stupid shit.

He's a jerk and a liar,
not worth my time
He tore my world apart
But he doesn't seem to mind.

Now he's changed
I can't lie
I'm so upset
but I'll just give him up with a sigh

The tears are falling
I can't stop them now
I don't even know
Why the hell or how!

I shouldn't be crying
this is so dumb
But he's all i can think about
I'm slowly going numb.

I tell everyone
that I'm over him
but everyone knows
that lying is a sin.

They see right thought me
They know me too well
After all I've been through
I just want all guys to go to hell.

I'll just put on a smile
and pretend I'm alright
but it's not how i feel
it's the same day and night.

It can't be this hard
to get over a guy
who was not to be trusted
and who told all those lies.

I want to believe him
but that's so hard to do
when you've listened to the stories
that have been told to you.

Some are good
but most are bad
They make you feel so many things
the number one being mad.

Now he ignores you
and shies away
Whenever you see him
It's the same story every day.

You want to storm over to him
ask "What the hell is going on?
Why can't we just figure out
What all went wrong?"

But he's not willing,
he's no longer my friend
Even though I wish he was
I can see, that's how it's going to end.

I don't want to accept
that I'm going to lose
one of my best friends
but it's not like I can choose.

If this does happen
If this is how it's going to be
then i just want him to know
that it's slowly killing me...