Even though

Even though I'm with someone new
i still care deeply about you
and i know its not fair to my new man
but i cant help but love you
I've been with you for such a long time and you were my first
and it feels like as soon as i start to show you how i feel
you back out
like I'm a game to play and when you think you win you quit playing as if I'm not worth it anymore and everything you said to me doesn't count anymore
so i want to know
is it all a lie?
or did you really care?
I'm hurting terribly and i think i know how you felt all those years that i turned you down but if thats the reason for all of this then you are a jerk and don't deserve my feelings
but as always for some reason i have always loved and cared for you and want the best for you
i just wish you thought the same way you did at the beginning- that i was the best for you
and right now i guess I'm being selfish but i cant help it

i don't know if i want you back but i just want you to know how much i care and i want you to feel the same and we can be friends like we were....