Toxic love
At first I was not sure what to think of us
And it seemed as though you did so I took a chance
And I thought well maybe he is not like the rest
And that I cannot make him pay for the hurt and pain that others have left me
So with thought in my mind I tried to make it work
At first everything was cool
It was so funny because even though I was still so unsure
About our relationship he gave this reassurance that it was like watching the sunset on a Sunday afternoon
I felt like I could tell him anything and everything knowing that he would never tell another soul
Everything seemed to be going great but it soon all came to an end
He had always seemed a little bit jealous and insecure about losing me to someone else
But he never really started to flip out and become some what controlling until now
I was always being accused of wanting to be with someone else or lying about everything
In his opinion everything that was going wrong in the relationship was my fault
I sit here and think now and I am like how can it be my fault when all i did was sit at home
And wait for your calls but every time I called, you said you were busy
I did everything to try to make you happy but come to find out you were the one creeping all along
Blaming me to try and cover your tracks and make yourself feel better
Even though it hurt me I still stayed by your side
But when you hit me it was time to let go
Can you even imagine all the pain I felt inside?
But even through all that I still love you
Even though you are just contributing to the hurt and pain that others have made me feel inside
At first I was not sure what to think of us
But now I do and you do not
I see that you treated me that way because of the anger and hurt and pain that she left you inside
And that you never let go of her even though she broke your heart the way you broke mine
And I see that deep down inside you still love her just like I still love you
I now know that deep down inside maybe you meant to do right by me but somehow got caught up
In missing and wanting her
It is a shame that how after knowing and finally understanding this Iâ??m still wanting you
Now I understand and why they say that you canâ??t blame anyone other than yourself for the evil that makes you cry
