Street of Lost Wishes

Walking down the boulevard
The street of my lost wishes
I see you and your heart
Your touch and your kisses

And God, I want so much to hold you
In the palm of my hand
But I just can't seem to accept
That there are things I can't understand

Like why I don't have you
And why we weren't meant to be
Why when I fell for you
You weren't there to catch me

My tears pour down my face
And as I walk in the rain
I'm not sure when I'll be ok
When I'll be happy again

I see you everywhere I go
And you don't know how hard it is
I never thought I would hurt this way
Every second, every moment like this

You keep on running through my mind
Along my heart that breaks
And I cry so often
I swear to God I'll dehydrate

You smile at me and talk
But you just don't know
I tried to tell you but it fell apart
And my emotions sunk so low

My mind is all in shambles
And I can't focus anymore
I'm lying here, drowning in tears
Hopeless on the floor

And you won't come help
And only you can heal
For once I just want to massacre
My heart and what I feel

But it's there, all the time
This aching in my heart
And finally I see
I'm slowly falling apart

You won't leave my soul
God, why is it this way?
I'll stagger in pain without you
Like every other day

Your smile kills me
Your touch burns me inside
Not only are you murdering my mind
You're murdering my pride

God, leave me here
Alone, please, just me
And I'll sit in loneliness
That's the way it has to be

I can't keep on this way
My heart and soul are beat
I'll walk alone on this boulevard
This lonely forgotten street.

I'm back. Please be gentle, I'm a little rusty.

© Carlee Ann E.