Through green eyes - The second letting go

I hope and pray
That maybe if I breathe
These awful, green feelings
Will detach themselves from me
But meanwhile,
In my heart
There will still be those feelings
That I felt at the start
I want to break free,
Away from your grasp
Into the light,
I run so fast
Walking back,
Still holding on
I can’t let go,
I can't move on
I tried to let loose
And except the fact
That this is true
And that is that
But how can one
Make one's heart take
Another direction
And let it break?
I want this to be happy,
I want us to be free
But how can I make that happen
If you're still a part of me?