Faking it

Should i keep pretending i don't care
like both of you aren't even there
when it hurts to see you together
and it'll probably hurt forever

you know i still love him but i just shrug it off
when deep inside I'm slowly dying
and i spend each night alone crying

i want you to be happy
even if it kills me
and it just might
unless i put up a good fight

i put on a tough but convincing face
against you i will lose this race
I'm putting on a show of acceptance
and you believe it because you have no common sense

it's just not right
you together are so wrong
but i guess I'll just pretend to be strong

when he looks at me i look away
when he touches me i walk away
i won't give in to him
not again

he's with you
i can't help that
no matter what i do

i use to long for his attention
but now I'll show some compassion
i won't respond to his flirting ways
because i don't want to hurt you any day

we've gotten in enough fights
no one was wrong
no one was right

I'll just smile and go along with it
i won't say anything or throw a fit

though i love him he is yours
and now it's time to shut those doors
those doors of hope that he'll come back to me
because you and him are meant to be