My life seems like a blank page without you.
You're always so close, yet so far away.
At night I wait and pray...
Why must my life be like this?
Why can't I go up to you, be brave, and give you a kiss?
Maybe it's me...
Maybe i'm not smart enough...
Smart enough to walk away.
Maybe you just have me under your spell...
I'm blinded by my first experience of true love to tell...
I wish that I could just leave and wish you well...
But it is not that easy...
I cannot guide my heart...
And that is just something that is really tearing me apart...
You hurt me in a way that you will never know...
But maybe this was a test, a test to make me stronger and grow...
Are you oblivious to any real love and emotion?
I am willing to give you my love, heart, soul, and total devotion...
But...maybe it was all a mistake...
Maybe I will just be left all alone...
with no real love to call my own.
All I can do is wonder why...
because i am tired of waiting and i refuse to cry.
At least I have the satisfaction that I was not scared and did wholeheartedly try...
