What have i done?

What have i done?
i don't understand,
he lied to me so i had to end it,
for i cant go out with one whose lost my trust.

every time he says something,
I'll wander is it true,
is he leading me on,
or dancing to my tune.

i miss, I'll admit,
his my friend,
or i thought he was,
but I'm not sure.

one minute his nice,
the next he hates my guts,
i don't know what to do,
I'm stuck between the ocean and the air.

both are beautiful,
and rightly so,
but both are deadly,
to one as weak as me.

what have i done?
but tell him its over?
he isn't worried,
he flirts with other.

it took me a long time,
to find trust after last time,
and in who do i find it?
in one who takes it for granted!

he played around with my feelings,
body and soul too,
what I've done to him,
his done to me worse.

my friends are against me,
his friends too,
he still messes with my feelings what do i do????

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please help me. I'm so confused my head hurts and i need help!!!