Dirty Stain #1

This feeling of a broken heart
I've felt it once before
This one will be healed in time
Even this you said so sure

I never thought you'd do this
It never really seemed that bad
Now every minute i spend thinking of you
but thinking of you makes me sad

You said you will return to me
you said it wouldn't take long
i took a breathe and took it in
but i knew i couldn't be strong

tears of sadness run down my cheeks
the beating of my heart skips at an uneven beat
i can't help but cry and still wonder why
even though i know, i have to try and stand on my feet

my mind has no thoughts
my feeling is all gone now
my tears are still flowing
as i start to wonder how

how long can this really last
and will this happen once more
I've never felt a pain so fierce
my heart has never been tore

my feelings aren't here
though i still say, because i do
i don't know how to react
but i still really do love you

the lights above me help me soothe
this pain inside me will remain
your words will stay in my mind
this is another dirty stain

the next time you make me feel this pain
my love will end my tears will dry
the feeling in you will tear your insides
and then it will be your turn to wonder why

keep it in mind although i am numb i still say i love you, i mean it with my heart
and when you return to me
ill be waiting with open arms like i said from the start

one tear adds on, one last time
for every time i think of you
another tear will drop
be ready for a shower because in my mind thats all i do