My first and the wish to be last

I have said it once
i have said it twice
i have said it
and thought it so much
that i have lost the count
but every time i promise you this
i meant it with every once of me
i love you

you were my first
it was so great
and your still my secret
yet the purpose is lost
i want you to know
that i need you so much
that not one hour
has gone by
with you not on my mind
and thoughts of hope
always follow behind
hope that you will change your mind
and allow our love to sour

just here me now
and if only here these words
my dear i need you
i need you to take me
and put me into your arms
and never let go
because with everyday i am not
i fall deeper and deeper
and fear that if you don't soon
later on when you try
you will fail
and i would never want you to

i wish that you would be my first
and i wish you would be my last
you got half of it already
won't you finish