Sorry I love you

Last night I sat down and chatted to you,
I thought it was about time to let the truth out of my heart,
I thought it might be the right thing to do,
But now that I told you how I feel, weâ??re growing further apart.

I love you I really do,
And I wish I could turn back the hands of time,
And talk to you like this was all new,
I really wish I could make you mine.

My heart aches every night,
What I keep asking myself is â??why does it hurt?â??
Is it because itâ??s you I canâ??t find?
Or is it because I have run out of places to hide?

I grabbed a knife, I really wanted to cut,
But I knew that if I asked for your help youâ??d think Iâ??m a pathetic nothing,
I just kept it all inside hid away and shut,
Believe me Iâ??m trying my hardest to become something.

But what I wish you could understand,
Is that last night I let it all out for a reason,
I want you to be the one grasping on to my hand,
But I suppose soon youâ??ll be leaving.

I beg you with all of the shattered pieces of me,
To help me out with everything,
You can still come back; itâ??s never too late for me,
So please, help me become something.

I canâ??t do it on my own you see,
I need you beside me to hold me into one,
Otherwise I canâ??t become who I want to be,
Iâ??ll stand in this life alone.

So **** please try and understand that these feelings are real,
I really wish you never left,
Because I hate the way I feel,
And in my eyes I see that youâ??re the bestâ?¦