Just a dream

Sometimes i sit and wonder
i sit and just think
how my whole life changed
with just one blink

i think about how its different
and what made it that way
i would change what happened
if i could go back to that day

then i picture it
my perfect life
and of course your by my side
not as a friend but as a wife

i think about the house we would live in
the children we could have had
i can almost hear one of them now
calling out come here dad

i go over there
and hug our little girl
i squeeze her so tight
cause to me she means the world

after a second i let her go
i turn and look seeing your smile
and that brief moment
made my whole life worth while

all the pain and tragedies
all the hard days that were crappy
none of that matters
when i look at you and your happy

then i snap back
back to whats real
then it comes back
all the pain and sadness i feel

cause i realize all thats just a dream
none of its true
not by my fault
or because of you

because of that car
i wish there was something i could do or say
to change what happened
on that tragic day

buts theres nothing i can do
cause believe me Ive tried
tears wont do it
believe me Ive cried

now I'm left here
all alone
but your doing fine
cause you went on home