Change

Striking blue ice crystals
Full of pain, holding so much unexplained
Memories locked tight far away
But close enough to be seen again
Self control, so many times let go
Aching to explode, shaking violently, I see the cold
Anger risen to pains, a calming joint
To soothe what I cannot heal, so dream like, yet so real
I've looked in worry, said words of true meaning
Hearing negativities, crawling under my skin, so many failed attempts, only to get back up and try again
Desire for what we feel, tender lips and soft fingertips kill
Emotions so deep may over spill, lost faith and hopes refilled
Happiness, rarely foundwithouth hidden doubt, that if can only last so long, so look for a different route
A life led so wrong, yet so right in my eyes
But for so many changes, to many times I've tried
Scars left, I gave you my curse, out blood met, I felt it first
Only to give those who never deserved, blood taste, soft skin against thirsty lips, face to face, knowing you know, makes me sick
Forever words, never spoken, but deep inside I think you feel them, I've given up on hope that I'll ever know
You opened up a part of me, took away what I didn't need