Over and Over

I gave you my heart
i loved you like my own
i put everything i had into you
everything into us

i trusted you like a sister
forgave you like one would too
believed you when you said
"we're just friends"

over and over
the same lies consume
the same words you spoke
over and over and over again

it should have been so obvious
just so easy for me to see
i blocked it out not wanting to
trying to think it wasn't true

you told me you loved me
told me i was beautiful
made me feel so good inside
like id found the one

then you said you didn't want to
be with me
everything changed in those few hours
you broke my heart that night
i don't think I'll ever forget

kissing you in that darkened room
holding hands with you at lunch
singing along with you to
countless songs on the telephone

i never wanted it to end this way
i thought wed be together forever
everything id ever felt for you
killed in that short time

i fell in love with you this time
and even if you don't accept it
i will never forget this time with you
when i felt to hopelessly ... in love

i would've done anything for you
i would've died for you, for us
i loved being with you, just us together
i loved everything about you

now i cant bear to look at you
i cant bear to see you with her
throwing away everything wed ever had or done
all my love for you is dead

cutting myself in the dark at night
waiting for it to hurt no more
trying to die so i wouldn't have to see
you with her ... you with her ...

it hurts so much to feel this now
and i regret ever loving you
wasting my time on some cheap boy thrill
the thought of you disgusts me

but thinking back over what we did
the love we shared, the words we spoke,
the images race through my brain
over and over and over again

you said you wanted to be single
and yet you're flirting with her again
you make me sick
that i ever loved you like i did

i know i fell in love with you
thats why its so hard for me to forget
so hard for me to let you go
so hard for me to accept

i feels like something in me has died
like a hole is there that has to be filled
a strange feeling
cold, empty, like i could never love again

i put so much into you
so much i wish i could take it back
one day changed it all
one day, and I've found myself repeating it back ...
over and over and over and over again.