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Summer full of love & bliss
Ha! Yeah right
If only I had a love once like this
Thinking of you I sometimes want to cry
Thinking about what we had and
How we ended it and Why?
I thought you were going to be special to me
The person I could call the one
Then I go all the way back
On how our Summer Relationship begun
I must admit you were special to me
Dreaming of you, the only boy I wanted to see
Now that it over I cant sleep at night
Its all because of you!
Was what we had worth a fight?
Oh my god! Why am I thinking of you?
Why did I even say yes?
To being your girlfriend, your boo
Since its been over I thought I was getting better
Its not! its only worse
Now that I see you everyday
I wonder what I did wrong? Is God sending me a curse?
But then its not a curse, I want to see you
At school, see you smile, see you converse, see you laugh
I accidentally want to walk right in your path
I dont know why I think of you
I don�t even know why sometimes
It seems like I want you back
The first time I heard a rumor
Did you know my heart went crack
Literally it went that way
Like someone shot it and the bullet went right through
The whole in my heart will always be there
And its all because of you!
AHH! Why is this happening to me?
Why is my heart spinning?
I need to start over
I need a New Beginning
I don know why I have these thoughts
Or why I have these feelings
I dont know if it was
With or without if my life had a Meaning
Some people thought we were cute together
Some were what youll call a hata
They thought you just another good 4-nothing playa
Which I knew was true when
I started to go with you
A lot thought it was weird
Me, nice quiet girl
Going with a rough gangsta like you
I remember when I would complain
About so much people hating
But you would just help me with a little more loving
Do you know what Im saying is on going?
It stays in my mind all the time
Its really truly really how I feel
I still unsure
If what me and you has was real
I remember all the arguments
How we argued so such
But then I wanted to be with you
I craved to feel your touch
Why am I thinking about our relationship we had this summer all the time
Why do I think about
When I used to claim you as Mine?
Foolish some may say
For you I feel oh so deep
Sometimes it feels as if you snatched my heart
And now you have it to keep
Did you know you hurt me?
So so much u must say
I still cry as you know
Up to this very day
Ugh! Its sad what Im going through
I dont know what I want
To be single? To be happy?
Or to be with you?
This poem can go on and on
But I choose to stop
What we went through
The laughter, the hugs
The arguments, the pain
You as my man
Everytime for You my
Heart will skip some beats
Again, and Again!