This is my self righteous suicide

I’m dead inside
Suicidal maniac
Hooked on medication
Drowning in hallucinations
I’m a slave to death
And hatred and fear
As I bleed these scarlet tears
From within my very soul
So cold
Empty
Alone
How can I cope
With this pain
Insane
Driven by hurt
Searching for words
To describe
My only
Self righteous
Suicide

Do you see?
Do you understand who I am?
I am nothing, worthless and from this I breed contempt,
mixed with agonies unforeseen,
A liar,
high above the mighty mountains
screaming to the wind this is my world, my life,
yet how shall I live,
To be a whirlwind of emotion staring upon massacres from my insanity bound vessel, hatred drives me, hurt cracks the whip upon my broken soul,
I bleed, I bleed bitter tears of memory wherein I have nothing but a tarnished soul,
a broken whole,
my hearts desire, how I love you