Just emotions.

I guess i cared more then i thought i did.

o my god, i miss him sooo much.
i really really want him. the more i think about it. the harder it is.
i miss not talking to him everyday, i miss it when he would randomly stop by my house.
i miss it when he would call in the morning just to tell me to have a good day.
and i miss the way that he said goodnight.
and i loved our serious talks.. and i really miss them.
i loved his stupid smile.
and the way that he would look at me.
i miss him. everything about him.
i miss knowing that he was safe, and knowing that he was ok.
i miss seeing his number come up on the phone..
knowing that it was about to be another long conversation.
and i miss it all.
i miss the way that we acted at disneyland.
i miss being with him until 4 o\'clock in the morning down at the pool in la where we didnt know anybody. so that we could act crazy. which i did.
i loved holding his hand even tho i acted like i didt.
i miss the look in his eyes and the smile on his face.
i miss everything about him. ahh. he did something to me..
that no one can replace.
i thought that i would be ok with out him..
but im not, cause im going crazy!