A desire in me opens up inside
like a poisonous snake trying to unwind
the confusion and grief, I can't explain
like the endless battle between sunshine and rain
A longing inside me, threatening to show
a whole new world that I didn't know
the sorrow and pain aren't far behind
I no longer feel conscious, just an empty mind
The weakness I feel when you are there
a feeling I've never been able to bear
a sweet sensation from within
unforgiving, deceitful, a sin
strange feelings, bad and good
a joyful sadness, misunderstood
unexplained and all alone
uncaring, yet almost grown
realizing signs of a first love
I am no longer an innocent dove
thrumming pain in my heart
reality and fantasy, together and apart
