Dead End Road

Please read and rate/comment! I'm sorry it's so long but the feelings kept on coming and I couldn't stop. I'd really appreciate everyones opinion on this one. This one is deep for me.

I have come to a dead end
Theres no looking back
You came to this same place
Long before me
You left me behind
So long ago
I chose not to see it
The pain I did not need
I have lied to myself
To delay the truth
You have forgotten me
It hurts beyond belief
Thinking about you
My throat gets tight
The tears I can feel
My stomach is turning
My heart as dark as night
I dont understand why
You never said goodbye
I watched you slip away
I could not hold you back
The pain I feel
Its all too real
I thought you were different
I really believed
But you have proved to me
That we just wont be
It makes me feel sick
Just to write these words
I wish this wasnt true
But youve lied to me
You made me promises
With no intentions to keep
I cant help it now
My tears are rolling
Uncontrollably down my cheeks
You were that boy
I brought you home
My family keeps asking
Why you went away
They really liked you
Because they could see
The look in my eyes
When you were around
The change in me was quite profound
I was happier than ever
Now Im an empty hole
You did something to me
In the time you were near
Something that I never knew
Before the day I met you
They say its love
You might not believe it
But here are a few things
To help you to see it
Some may think Im insane
In most conversations
I cant help but mention your name
Everywhere I go
Something makes me think of you
I cant escape it
Its like you were meant to be there
Your presence is all around me
You even haunt my dreams
Sometimes I wish youd just go away
Please now let me be
But I realize at this moment
I cant get rid of memories
They cannot be chased away
No magic spell can set me free
I am trapped
Caged by love
Cant you see?
Each day I wake
The first thought in my mind
I think of you
I wonder if you ever think of me
Do you ever for even a brief moment
Wish I was there
Wish I was next to you
Wish you could touch me
Wish you could feel me
Because I know I do
I want you to want me
I wish you would love me
Love me like you used to
Back before it all went wrong
Back when our love was strong
These are the things that go through my mind
Each and every minute
Of each and every day
Ever since I told myself the truth
That you were gone
And would never return to me
Even though it hurts to know
That you want nothing to do with me
Its better than the lies
Self-inflicted upon me
For I felt nothing
Like being dead
I showed no emotion
A statue with no meaning
At least now I feel
Even the pain
Feels sort of good
Because I know
Joy will come again
But before I finish
One thing must be made clear
I will always love you
Have no fear
But I will move on
To find better things
I will build my life
I will get past all this strife
I have my whole life to live
And I will not dwell here for long
I have met this dead end
I hit it head on
But before Id look back
Id much rather be strong
I will take what Ive learned
And make my own trail
Work past this dead end
I wont let myself fail
I wish you the best of luck
I hope we can keep in touch
But I have big plans
Waiting patiently to start
I have to go now
But remember
Youre always in my heart.