What Happens Next?

The last phone call ended it all.
The pain is worse then never before.
All I do is lay on the floor.
I don't want to talk about it.
It's something I can't forget.
I pushed him away.
But he also pushed me away.
Can't help but remember the nights in my yard.
Never knew it'd be so hard.
It hurt so bad to say bye.
I tried not to cry.
But it poured out.
I have to be without him.
What happens next?
Can't help but think about my ex.
He seems so far away and cold.
I wanted to be by his side when he grew old.
All I do is stare into space
& wish to be in a different place.
People say it'll be all right.
But I'm so alone at night.
He slipped out of my arms and I let it happen.
I couldn't hold on.
I tried to be strong.
But I am weak.
I have nothing left to seek.
I remember his last smile.
It made it all worth while.
What happens next?
Can't help but think about my ex.
I remember his laughter.
Before and after.
I remember him holding me so tight.
I didn't want to let go at night.
I don't see the point in waking up
If he's never gonna be by my side again.
It had to end.
I don't see the point on moving on.
How do I deal with him being gone?
In my head is his face.
I don't ever want it o fade away.
My hand slipped out from his hand.
I fell into another land.
There's nothing I can do.
My love for him is still true.
I tell myself maybe it was meant to be.
We just couldn't see.
I loved him and he loved me.
That's all that matters..
What happens next?