I'm laying down about to go to sleep and then i turn my head and see my blue wall. its weird, what i start thinking about and it isn't something i like to remember. I start thinking about you. i know it dint make sense it just might be because my wall is blue. i start thinking about the times you kissed me, hugged me and the time we went to church together. why did you do these things we never went out, you never even knew i liked you. but i guess that is who you are, i mean i cant blame myself for loving you but i really don't like the pain i just want to let go sometimes i think i could then get my life arranged. i just feel like you don't care, but why should you? you have no feelings for me, i should just let myself be.
be alone, be afraid be thinking of something else but you. i mean you have no reason to care, we never went out, you never got to know what i would've done for you. now I'm not saying your the bad one but if you don't care then let go... let go of kissing me let go of hugging me and stop making me happy for the minute i have with you because when your gone then what do i do? i sit here and cry and wishing you would kiss me again. but now i see that i have to let go... i have to let go of my my memories of you, i have to let go of everything i care about. now don't get me wrong i will always love you but if i really loved myself i would let go!! i will always have you in my heart but it now has shattered to pieces because i let go of the love of my life. oh god i am about to cry. i know ya ll don't know why but i love him so much you just don't understand!! i wanted him to be my man!! i want him to love me i want him to care!! he is so wonderful but i want to say goodbye!! i know it sounds crazy but no one gets me he is beautiful anyway i try to look at him!!! but.......... i will say it again i have too let go!
