Screw you '05

It seems like this year has only begun
But now the year is finally done
And now I'm thinking... and looking back
so much has changed like from white to black

The beginning of the year was a low
Cutting and burning, now what do i have to show?
My family really made their mark
when they turned and left me in the dark

My mother & i grew apart a lot
Remembering now all the times we fought
So many times she was at my throat
So many times i wrote out a suicide note

The family founded out about my smoking and drinking
I've realized that i do actions without thinking
Summertime came, and i was ready to do good and go!
But more fighting told my heart "no"

I started on drugs... snorting, smoking and pills
I was getting more than just cold wind chills
Life was swerving out of control
I needed a sturdy grip to hold

I've overdosed on drugs and passed out on whiskey
I've put myself in positions that became so risky
Leanne and I stopped hanging around each other
Troy committed suicide.. the dale has lost another

I was threatened and heart broken
I was told things that hurt worse being spoken
I had nights when i finally sat down and cried!
I gained people in who i could confide

I opened a confidential letter
That didn't make my life any better
My dad's hand-written suicide note
I STILL can't believe what he wrote

I was FIRST told she was moving to a different state
Then that she wasn't at all.. so everything was great
Finally, I'm told she's moving back with her family
And i still hope that she'll always be happy

The first boy since my bad relationship
Him & me are finally done with
He told me that he loved me
But my craziness is not what he's wanting

I passed out in my room after school one day
I wasn't on anything, i was OK
My heart rate was too damn high
I was scared to speak, i started to cry

I laid in the office the other day
Looking at the ceiling... i want this to go away
So much pain... in my broken heart
What did i do to make this all fall apart?

The year is done... thank god it ends
I leave it the right way... with my family aka friends
And I'll stand in the street with my finger to the sky
And Scream "Screw You Oh Five"