Feelings

I'm gonna put some feelings into this poem I'm gonna put some emotions I may have felt but never left them out. I feel confused like I'm in denial. Today i must have at least cried 3 times while I wasn't talking to you today. At first when i started talking to you I thought shallower end up going our own separate ways? Orally wouldn't like that but if it was the best i guess I'll be up for the challenge. Then I would have to make so many changes by you not being here for me no more days. I would end up crying so many cries until my eyes felt like they didn't need no more cries. I wanna say sorry but I have nothing to say sorry for. I wish was never in this mess I deserve so much more.I feel like at first you caught me then you let me fall. But then again I did the same so were back to square-one. In some ways I feel nervous then again I'm just mad trust me you think you seen me mad you should of seen me today for like a minute or two I ended up hating thine I love which is very sad to say. For that other girl I already don't like her you can still like her but i already decided. You told me if I ever wrote a poem about you to let you see well baby I ain't keeping this back I'll let you read. I'm gonna pour every last feeling every last pain until my insides are back to at least plain. I wanna have that smile that use to brighten the room don't wanna have tears that make everything all gloomy and crap. I don't wanna have a broken heart I want it to mend.Theres alot of things I want that may not happen for a while. Hopefully we will sort everything out fast or everything might go down the drain. So here I am broken heart insides hurting a knot feel so lost and confused at once the tears that are streaming down my face do not help makes me not wanna erase.I tried to say so many things but this is so I felt that I need to write you see? I love you I do... but the me and you thing... what should we do