Heartbroken again

I don't want to be sat here
Feeling so alone
feeling like no guy cares for me
feeling like i can't take anymore

I hate what guys do to me
even though its mostly my fault
I always end up hurting
More than they ever will

the one time i thought
I'd found someone special
Someone who made me feel great
Who i thought really loved me

Hes like everyone other guy
He has two sides
But i fell for him so hard
So hard that everyday it hurts

I hate seeing him
Knowing that hes not mine
I don't know what he feels for me
I want to act like i don't care

but i do and i hate it
why did i have to cry last night
And let of my problems out
everytime i cry its coz of some guy

For the last 4 months
I've cried for nothing else
Just my love life going wrong
and its in a mess once again

Why can't i just be happy
with one amazing guy
my lifes never that easy
they always have a hold over me

I love it when i'm with him
and i'm lying in his arms
I feel invinciable to the world
Like nothing can ever hurt me

coz i love him and he loves me
and thats all that ever matters
I love the way we kiss
its such an amazing feeling

It feels like its from some movie
when theres the sparks and fireworks
thats how special he makes me feel
hes so different from the others

i love him so much
and i know i say it alot
each guy is a different feeling
but this ones the best

i go weak at the knees
and my stomach goes funny
no-one else seems to matter
when i hear his voice or see him

I hate the way i'm so caught up
on someone that i don't know cares
i need to know if hes there
when i need him so badly

like right now i'm sat here
Sat here all alone
thinking about everything
everything that went wrong

i want to know why his mate
Just has to interfer
he ruins everything we have
and i don't know why

Kyle's such a different person
when Adam's around
he's so nasty to me
and makes me hate myself

If he had any idea
what Adam did to him
he wouldn't suck up to him
and make me lose out

i want to tell him i'm sorry
for everything i've done
i want to tell him i love him
more than anyone else

hes the most important guy
to have ever entered my life
i miss him so much
when hes not around

so i don't want to be sat here
alone and by myself
i just want to be loved
by him and no-one else

*sorry its kind of long i'm just feeling kind of heartbroken and need to get it out!*