Every time I breathe,
Every time I close my eyes,
It\'s you I see,
But when I open them I wonder why.
I wonder why day in and day out,
I feel the way I do,
I think it\'s because I need someone around,
To help in the things I do.
I\'ve always been standing alone,
Outside in the cold,
I\'ve always been left on my own,
With the fake smiles, along with looking brave and bold.
How much longer of this can I take?
Living here without you,
But if you choose me you\'ll make a mistake,
You\'ll regret it with everything you do.
Why did you only just tell me?
I\'ve felt this pain so long,
I\'ve always had dreams,
You are the one who completes life’s sweet song.
When I lay my head down at night,
I can\'t seem to sleep,
All of a sudden I am filled with fright,
That\'s until I listen to my heart beat.
It beats a somewhat peaceful rhythm,
I try matching it to your name,
But it doesn\'t work within,
But then I try again.
It\'s like I can hear your voice,
Screaming down at me,
But I know it\'s my choice,
Of whether I should let us be.
As much as I wish we could be,
It will never happen,
You don’t even know the real me,
And to you- nothing really matters.
Behind my fake cheesy grins,
Are endless rivers of tears,
Behind all the happiness within,
Is a girl full of fears.
Underneath the long sleeves,
Lie cut up, deadly arms,
And behind all of the new me,
Lie daunting scars.
Behind my body which looks so whole,
Is a broken heart,
But only you can make it hole,
Here we are back at the start.
To find out you were only joking,
Makes me want to cry,
I was only hoping,
It wasn’t another stupid lie.
But I’ll pretend it didn’t affect me,
Carry along with my fake smiles,
After all it’s not like anyone notices me,
And it’s not like I’m upset by your lies…
