Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it'd be
If he had loved me
Truly loved me yes
I learned a while ago that kind of thing
Never happens for me
And so I go around
And just pretend
Love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh and they won't see
That you never let them see you sweat
Donâ??t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me
So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is oOK
Iâ??m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause Iâ??m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face
Sometimes I sit at home
By the phone hoping he might call me
But he don't call me
But then I realize
Dreams come true aren't for girls like me
Not like me
And so I go around with my head up
Like it ain't no thing
And when the boys are out with all my friends
Iâ??m into other things
Cause you never let them see you sweat
Donâ??t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me
And so I put my make up)
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay OKâ??OKughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
But Iâ??m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
Itâ??s not an easy
Sometimes itâ??s hard to )
Itâ??s not the life that I would choose
But what else can I do?
If he donâ??t love me
If he donâ??t want me
Iâ??m not about to sit around
Let myself go
