WaKiNg uP kNoWiNg YoUr NoT MiNe

by kraz33 beautiful   Jan 16, 2006


WaKiNg Up KnOwInG YoUr NoT MiNe
The mornings are so hard for me
knowing that you arent here with me
Waking up with you already on my mind
is a feeling I cant define
Going to school in the halls and seeing you as time stops
It makes it so hard to talk
Walking down the halls we onced walked down together hand in hand
When i want to walk up to you it feels like my feet are in quicksand
I cant seem to move at all
I feel like if i take a step towards you i will fall
So i keep walking like i don\'t see you cause i know you dont see me
everything i do you dont see
I go the whole day with your name repeating in my head
feels like my mind is brain dead
By the end of the day i am sad cause i wont see you for the rest of the day
But i have nothing to say
so I go home and crawl in bed and cry thinking of you
so finally after a few hours i try to find something to do
But yet you are still in my mind
My friends ask what is wrong and i say everything is fine
but the look in my eyes
and know that it is a lie
Then i go home knowing that going out didnt help at all
Sometimes i want to call
but i know he wont answer or he will say something to hurt me
He is not who he used to be
Then before I go sleep and I lay down outside and look at the stars wishing the happiness of the one I love
And I hope the lord is listening up above
Then I crawl in my bed with my tearstained pillow
with a face like a weeping willow
and just lay there hoping to dream of his beautiful face
and be happy together and be in another place...
This happens all over again everyday, everytime
I wake up knowing he is not mine....

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