I'll deal with it myself

Its 3am in the morning ,
And i still cant go to sleep ,
The pain wont go away,
And the scars are just to deep.

My eyes are sore from crying ,
And my body's feeling weak,
I'm lonely and cold inside,
And its only love that i seek .

Everytime i open up ,
Im being harshly torn apart,
So im mean to the outside world ,
For protection to my heart .

Please understand the tears ,
The confusion in my eyes,
This little girl who's looking for love ,
And being blinded by pure lies .

You expect me to believe you ,
When you say you really care,
But yet you don't love me ,
So im asking you to be fair.

It hurts when i talk to you ,
And its hard to be just your friend,
So please im asking just this once ,
Let my broken heart fully mend .

I'm staring at the ceiling ,
As i lie here on my bed,
Tears dripping silently,
And im lost alone in my head .

Don't want to tell you i love you ,
Because rejection is my fear,
Instead ill deal with it myself ,
In every falling tear ...

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