I dont understand myself
Giving me a long time to forget
Why do i have to feel this way
You left me in despair...
I thought everything is ok
Then suddenly u just disappear
I was so foolish, i did look for you
Did the best thing i can do.
My heart almost die..
When i did hear you say goodbye
You cant give any reason
That gave me a lot of confusion.
Did I did something wrong?
Maybe my love and care is not enough
Or maybe you really don't love me at all
One thing for sure..you don't want me no more!
Sometimes I want to yell
Your a coward or gay
For u just run away
And cant even speak what u want to say.
Was all in pain and thought no reason to live
Tried to end everything just to forget
But then God make me live
Give me a chance to stay and perceive
I have so many reason to live
Realizes that when i woke up from my death bed
I have seen people who truly care
Genuinely love me and will be with me till end
Honestly, I still love you and miss you
I wont deny it as I'm always honest to you
But it wont be fair for me if i want u back
There'll be no future for us
I do understand now and no regrets
No hatred for i did forgive
I don't want to have a heavy heart
For I want to ease my life in peace.
So many question still on my mind
What the heck...no point of knowing why
You've been long gone
And I'm starting my new life now.
Not easy for me to forgive
But darn i just did.
Guess I'm still the old Michelle
Sigh i wish i could change my way.
Now whenever I came a cross with u
I know i wont frown or smug at you
Definitely would give u a smile
For now I did accepted that you are not mine.
