XxAnother roller CoasterxX

Once again your gone and I'm alone all over again
another roller coaster another trip down memory lane
this is all becoming to familiar once again
tears pouring like crazy, head ponding, hands shaky

Face pale as a ghost, within minutes it will get worse
Your gone, i thought I'd be happy thought you'd be happy
But every second my heart breaks more
While my brain searches for a second chance thats never coming

How can i hate you, but love you so much at the same time
All at once emotions pour, i can't handle it
N controlling em is impossible
anger, fear, confusion, and depression

I can't escape it, forever trying to run form it
It, being love, four letters that can put me in a grave
six feet under never to show my face again
One word i thought my ears long waited to hear

But once they did deaf is what they wished
I scream go away, But i want you right here
is it possible to sit next to me but be a million miles away?
Is it possible that one word just one word can put you threw this?