This is my suicide overdose

What was I thinking?
I guess you'll never know
My eyes are blinking
My heart is starting to slow
I'm drifting in and out of this world I used to know
Drilling words of hate into my head
Making my mind start to think
Which made up my ideas in my head
What's wrong or right
I don't know
I'm opening up now
I'm letting my pain start to show
Let it all go you say
As I let my heart start to show
I was corrupted by
Some sick f**k
Who thought to
F**k my life up
And leave me dieing
I'm still alive
but inside I'm tearing apart
I'm trying to clear my head
I'm still crying now
I'm still sadden now
Cut that snakes tongue out
who told me lies
Of what really happened to me
I'm starting to fall even though
I'm on the ground
I'm trying to breathe in
but not breathing out
I'm taking every last pill
I'm starting to talk slow
How come I thought you
would be the last to tell me a lie
I'm Choking softly
Not having any control
Keep on telling me lies
Feelings of tears
Feelings of fears
Trying to breathe in
Can't breathe out
It's not coming fast enough
Just let me go
Stop talking to me
Your making my pain slow
I hate you for what you did to me
So let me die
Give me the blade of insanity
And Give me scars to speed things up
One of these times I'm going to slip
One of these times talking isn't going to help
I've tried to be the very best I can be
Please just let me be free of this pain
Suicidal , Giving into the pain
All is lost nothing to gain
My body is bleeding
I'm in the hospital bed
Thinking..........
Why didn't you let me die
From overdose?
Why didnt you let me die
I still feel pain
I'm stating to cry
Please someone please let me die
I wake up from a nightmare that happened in real life
I go on with my day with a smile and laugh
but it's still there inside of me
The pain that happened to me that night