I had this boyfriend that I really loved. And even though it's been a while I still love him very much. He was very special to me. Even though he wasn't my first boyfriend in my heart he is. Our relationship was very beautiful; first of all he was my best friends brother which was very good.
Because I could spend time with my friend and my boyfriend. I don't know if this is what you would call "my first love" but it really feels like it. I knew the very first time he kissed me that I loved him deeply. His hugs are like no others I've ever have When I would feel his lips on mine I would forget about the whole world. Seems like everything was perfect right? Well that's what I thought too I thought we would last forever. But it all ended because of ME! Since this guy was a year younger. We didn't have the same classes. So it all started with this girl I hung our with that started to like my man. At first I didn't say any thing you know to avoid misunderstandings of real love or if was just a simple attraction. But then she would start talking about him like if she really did love him. So I would ask him what he thought about her. He would simply say he had no other eyes except for me. So I was convinced no matter how hard she tried she would never get him but even after that she would just insist it would make me mad! So day after day I would ask over and over again he would always answer the same. I guess it just came to a day that he got tired of it and we stopped talking. Later I told him it was better if we just split. It killed me inside but I had to do it. That day I remember crying and giving him the last hug and kiss. He didn't cry there. But the next day at school his sister told me he had cried too. That I was the first girl he had ever cried for. I was shocked! I knew I still loved with all my heart but that girl was just there! In the way! After that we never spoke again. The only thing I know now is that the girl he said he would never like ended up being his girl for a couple months thats what killed me. I also know that the nick name everyone used to call him which I would too he told everyone he never wanted to hear anyone call him like that again. I asked his sister why she said because that reminded him of me and he wanted to forget how much I hurter him and how much he still needed me with him. That made me realizes that he really did love me and that I wasn't just another girl in his life. Up till today I still love this guy with all my heart. I know hell never read this. But I want to tell you that my heart will always have an owner and thats you Baby!
