My eyes are closing, stinging from the pain, of remembering the memories tracking down my name. my lungs feel heavy, its getting harder to breathe, if youre going to go, i wish youd just leave. my heart doesnt feel like a heart
anymore, its broken in pieces, battered and sore. it feels like a hunger ache, focused in the heart, hungry for something that wont rip it apart. my heart doesnt trust you, wont believe what you say, but dont give up cause of that,
please dont let me go away. my mind knows i love you, my heart doesnt want to cry, so it blocks out those feelings, and turn them to lies. my heart has a rule, if we get too close, it thinks you will hurt me, more so than most. so i
push you away, whenever im hurt but thats when you start to treat me like dirt. so my heart gets confused, cause it pushed you away, but yet, you hurt us
anyway. so im stuck in a circle, round, round,and round repeatedly drowning, not
making a sound. the only noise is inside, where im screaming out loud bleeding, not noticed, in a blind, hopeless crowd. lungs are collapsing, tears will be
falling and once again i must fight the death thats been calling. i have a hole in my heart that youve occupied now said that youd help me, but the question
is......how?? i know that i love you, i know that you care, but sometimes i need more thatn whats always there. i try fighting against it, but i always go weak, and i need you to be there, when i can no longer speak. i understand why youd leave i know its hard to see. and i cant tell you how sorry i am, for being a person like me.
I COULDVE ENDED ALL THIS PAIN BUT I WAS TOO FAR FROM THE START. MAYBE IF I HAD
STOPPED THIS GAME, I WOULDNT BE SO TORN APART. BUT IT WAS JUST SO HARD TO CHOOSE
BETWEEN REAL FEELINGS AND THE FAKE. I THOUGHT I HAD NOTHING TO LOSE BUT THE TRUTH CAME TO ME TOO LATE. I WANTED TO BELIEVE THIS LIE, I CHOSE NOT TO PLAY IT SMART. AND THATS THE ONLY REASON WHY I DONT BLAME YOU FOR MY BROKEN HEART. I LET
MY HEART GET RIPPED IN TWO I MYSELF CAUSED IT TO BREAK. AND THOUGH IT HURTS, BUT ITS THE TRUTH; LOVING YOU WAS MY MISTAKE.
