If Only My Heart Were Free

I'm so tired of never knowing what to do,
I'm tired of being so confused,
I'm tired of this feeling,
I long for something new,

I've been waiting for what seems like forever,
never gaining ground at all,
so I'm tired of this heartbreak,
and so many tears that fall,

My head says so many things,
and I know that they're all true,
but my heart still holds on,
and I just don't have a clue,

I've never felt such sadness,
as the day you walked away,
you drove a knife right through my heart,
on that warm March day,

after all the hurt,
after so much pain,
there's something still inside me,
my feelings for you remain,

I look at you and wonder exactly what you feel,
so many times I've tired to hate you,
but I know I never will,

Now I think I'm ready,
to finally try and move on,
I just never can,
cause your really never gone,

I still look at you and wonder,
if you'd ever be happy with me,
or if you really are my special meant to be,

I could take the chance with somone new,
just to test myself and see,
If only I could let you go,
and if only my heart were free!