I think of you all the time. When I was young I never thought of how your being gone would affect my life. Its been almost 15 years since I last heard your voice, seen your face, felt your warmth.
For 10 years there was a man that was always trying to take your place in my heart. When things went wrong with him, I was always thinking of you, wishing you were there instead of him.
Growing up, I was the only one of my friends that didn't have both parents. I've always felt scared & ashamed when someone asked me about my family.
I wonder about what you think of me, of my choices, me regrets. I know you're always looking in on me from time to time.
When i think of all the good moments of my life, I can imagine you there supporting me. Wishing me the best. Hoping that I'll have a great time.
But thats something that never happened. Because you left me a long time ago and still, as i always do, I'm wishing you were here.
With all the loss of family members these past few years, I think of you constantly. But something amazing happened a year ago. I found out that I have another uncle.
I know that he found me because of you. You gave something more to my life. Even though you're not physically here with me, you are always in my heart and on my mind.
