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by Sorefromreality Feb 12, 2006 category : Love, romance / first love
Ive got a wall built up i have made it stronger by the day no one can break it down try as they may i am closed up no one can come through no one can enter no matter what they do i hate being filled with doubt and all this pent up frustration i despise having to wait for things I'm so impatient stop all these eyes from watching me b/c i fear inside they can see see my heartbreak and all my sadness i don't want them to know it will soon turn to madness I'm scared to love scared to give I'm terrified most just to live what if i fail and lose what i have found what if after flying i just fall to the ground i don't want to hurt him or get hurt myself don't want to open up i am upset at myself i cant stand to cry so ill hold it all in fake a smile pretend to grin i discovered i cant run from something so near but i am so afraid of love afraid to fear! I'm losing touch losing all sanity i don't know how to be gentle and show humanity someone please help show me the way i need guidance i need it today