Never going to be okay

I hate how a guy,
Can never get hurt,
But is always doing the hurting,
Just once I d like them to know,
How it feels to wander this earth,
Knowing that you a useless,
And not worth caring about,
Some girls say that everything will be okay,
I say that a lot,
But it will never be okay!
Giving your heart to someone,
To cherish and love,
Only to find out he s in love with someone else,
Is not okay!
It hurts like a knife threw your heart! Like a hand in a oven,
Like a scrape across your neck,
You heal from it,
But there is always a mark left,
I learned and healed easily,
But the mark that it left,
Was worse than i d imagine,
Everytime I look at it,
I feel ugly and useless and alone,
Everytime I think about him
I know i m stupid and fat and ugly,
Everytime I see his msn name,
I think that everything will be okay this time... will it ever be?