I'm at a loss for words.
I've been so confused.
I can't sleep anymore.
But sleep always comes.
And when it does,
I toss and turn the night away.
Dream of things that make me un-easy.
I no longer want to eat.
I'm to the point,
Where I just want to sleep forever.
Never waking up.
But I always wake.
In a cold sweat.
Dreading the lies before me.
I've locked everyone out.
I've closed myself away, again.
But this time I wonder if I can find myself again.
My world's been turned upside down, again.
And I don't know why.
Making up things in my head.
Putting words into your mouth.
And conviencing myself of these words.
I just make up my own excuses for you.
Whether they be true or far from it.
I'll never know.
You'll never tell me.
Even if you do, I'll just push it away.
Another lie formed and another broken heart.
Without you saying anything.
I never could handle this.
I don't understand why'd you take me back.
Or try this again.
Afraid to hurt me?
I hurt myself.
So don't worry about that.
I should have just let things be.
I should have left when I had the chance.
Never came back..
I tried to figure out why I love you.
What draws me toward you everyday.
Honestly, I don't know.
But I do.
That's all I know.
I do.
But do you?
Do you understand?
Would you let me know?
Would you?
