I miss you

Every night I cry myself to sleep
All because this pain is too deep
I been thinking about what I use to do
But I remember how it affected you
I taped a picture of you on my bed
Late at night I look at your picture and say a prayer in my head
When I stare into you eyes
It makes me want to cry
I listen to Don't Forget to Remember Me? every night
I hug my stuffed animal hoping everything will be alright
If you lived closer it wouldn't be this way
But I can't help it that you choose to move away
I'm sorry for the choice I made
Now I just feel like picking up the blade
So I can end everything
But then it wouldn't be wouldn't because you would remember everything
Since mom won't let me see you April Vacation I'll always be thinking of you
And all the fun things we were suppose to do
I'll be sitting here with a big frown on my face feeling blue
This is going to be so hard if only you knew
I wish mom would just let me go that one week
Because I miss your gentle kisses on my cheek
If there was a way I could go I would
But I don't think I could