I dont know what to do

My heart burns with more pain,
than you could ever know
Its an indescribable pain,
which is impossible to show

Why do I hurt this time?
Whats wrong with me now?
I just need to stop being soft,
just stop having a cow

But Ive hurt my best friend,
something I swore I would never do
What was I thinking?
How could I do this to you?

Everyone makes mistakes,
just not this big
I don't know how to fix this,
and fill this hole Ive begun to dig

By: cody my older bro