Love Him...STILL!!!

I'm crying again
Crying over you
Crying because you don't care
Crying because your you

What do I have to do
To make you smile at me
I know were meant for each other
You just can't see

We was going to have a baby
We could have had a life
We would have been so in love
Then been husband and wife

I have a one track mind
That is just about you
Sticking in my brain
So what can I do?

We was so close
To being together again
I know we'll speak to each other
But I really want to know when

It's driving mental
It's driving me depressed
It's driving a hole into my heart
Deep into my chest

I dreamt last night
That you had hold of my heart
Good thing it was just mine
I suppose that's a start

But what happened next
Wasn't exactly the best
Because there was a big bloody hole
Right through my chest

Everyone around me was shocked
But to me it felt right
To see you staring at me
Your eyes so blue and bright

Dreams are life
But more surreal
But somehow, no matter how strange
It almost felt real

How do I get over?
Something I couldn't last year
Through abuse and hate
I still want your care

You hit and laughed
And made me die
We was both in tears
You with laughter but me to cry

You hated me yourself
But that wasn't enough
You got everyone to hate me as well
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You stopped my life
And put it on hold
My once warm and loving life
Became so hateful and cold

The hate you gave
Made me give up a life
Few pills to get rid of that problem
But I got rid of mine with a knife

How can I still love?
Especially you
You're just a part of me
With everything you do.

Please don't leave again
Don't go away
Hug and love me forever
Promise that you'll stay

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