My tears/emo's arm

Tears from my eyes run down my face. just like the blood running down an emos arm.
thinking about self preservation and also self harm.
you broke up with me because we fought. your were my one and only. thats all i thought. i hate you. but i cant get you out of my head. i love you. but i just want to disappear instead.
you told my best friend, I'm over everything, shes dumped.
he never told me! thats why i wasn't pumped.
i wouldn't of acted all fine with you, if i knew this was something i would of had to go through.
so much for i love you baby, and all those hugs and kisses.
i know one day he'll turn around and ill be the one he misses.
so forgive me because i cried.
i thought you were my special guy.
forget the things i said and promised.
because its all gone. i still don't understand why.
i wont cry anymore, i just don't want you to see. how much you really broke my heart, how much you have really hurt me.
i love you still,
but this is our goodbye.
have a great day and have a great life.